Photos by Nelson
Brown fur felt cloche-Guy NYC, vintage tangelo orange wool coat with belt-gifted, vintage orange/brown/pink striped scarf and vintage brown leather gloves-estate sales, vintage pink earrings-vintage shop.
It goes without saying that The Style Crone adores hats, but a chapeau that is created in a manner that every view presents a new picture is especially appealing. Because yesterday blew in with snow and a chill, today was an opportunity to go back to winter wear with a felt hat and wool coat. As I was adjusting my hat and turning my head to examine every possible angle, I realized that different views are present in life situations as well. The background remains the same, but the point of view (the look of the hat) shifts. Looking at Nelson’s health status front and center, I feel devastated and overwhelmed with anticipatory grief and a sense of loss. When I turn to the side and gaze upon our circumstances differently I see beauty in how we express ourselves in our relationship because the time we have together is limited. It makes each day more intense with vibrant color and no matter how I might have tried in the past, it was never possible to live each day as if it were my last. Now I experience the moments with Nelson with deep gratitude and soft celebration, appreciating the memories, looking at photos from the past with a new eye, and interacting with a meaning that didn’t exist before we began to accept that he is dying. I identify a totally different landscape as I move to the opposite side and consider the complexity of the process that presents itself daily and how this profound transition, as I have mentioned before and think about often, resembles birth in that it’s unpredictable, mysterious, and has its own preparations. Another perspective occasionally surfaces by whispering softly into the ear that is covered by The SC’s hat that a spontaneous remission will surprise us all and that it’s never too late to hope for the best in the midst of a seemingly relentless position.