Navy and Green

Photo by Nelson

Navy felt cloche with velvet bow-gifted, vintage green gloves and navy jacket-estate sales, green neck warmer-Xeino, navy diane von furstenberg pants-consignment store.

Flirting, posing and laughing with Nelson through the lens as the feather neck warmer softly teases my chin, The Style Crone gets ready to run out the door for appointments and errands.  As the day progresses, I reflect on the events of the past week and how advocating for a loved one in the health care system takes constant hypervigilance and the ability to be flexible when a status change occurs. There is a fine line, a tight rope to walk, to assure that Nelson gets what he needs.  Constant assertiveness in the form of ‘a broken record’ with just the right tone of voice, firm, but not too pressured so as not to alienate health care providers. Emotions must be put aside as much as possible until there is a safe place to express myself because Nelson’s welfare is the priority in this precarious situation.  So many things can go wrong and I’ve seen way too much in my own health care career of 50 years, so that nothing shocks me. But underneath all of that I feel vulnerable and frightened, sometimes frustrated, powerless, and impatient.  So today, I flirt!  And wear feathers with green and navy!