Photo by Nelson
Plum/orange hat-consignment store; vintage 1940’s plum wool jacket with fur trim, vintage orange leather gloves, vintage jewelry-estate sales; long black rayon skirt-Camille cast off.
Nelson’s oncology appointment today was a consultation to determine follow-up details. His blood work values continue to indicate cancer growth and liver dysfunction. The chemo infusion two weeks ago did nothing but cause distress and suffering, so Nelson’s decision to discontinue treatment was reinforced. When asked about his symptoms, he described ‘itching’ as a frequent occurrence. The oncologist asked what seemed to help this side effect of liver impairment and Nelson wryly replied with ‘scratching.’ Always the comedian, his comment cut through the tension and intensity of the moment as though he had just punctured a balloon. I found myself laughing through my tears and on the way home I attempted to come up with a word to describe my reaction. None came to mind, so The SC came up with ‘laugh-tears.’ Making up new words won’t change our circumstance, but with Nelson by my side it could become a frequently used term as our journey continues.